What I’m writing – The River of Rejection

I am not an artist. This is about as “arty” as I get and even this is a child’s eye view of the world with added pretention – the stars are my manuscripts, the river is self-explanitory, the stick figure is actually a very close representation of me… I’m working on my Julianne book from […]

The Prompt – Nativity

When I was 6 years old, the school (the same school my daughter attends now, in fact) didn’t do a nativity for Christmas. Instead they decided to do a weird thing with elves and pixies. There may have been a Mary or Joseph at some point, but I don’t remember them. What I do remember […]

What I’m writing – Confused Muse

Maddy is hosting this week, so if you’re looking for a linky, you need to head to her blog. For the last couple of months (the time leading up to my eventual crash at the beginning of November) the inspiration for writing was definitely flowing. As well as those blog posts I was hammering out […]

What I’m writing – being back

Boogey boogey. OH HELLO, looking GOOD there, self-confidence. Self-doubt, glad to see you’re back in your cage. Nice to see you again, self-worth. *Pats teeny-tiny suicidal thoughts on the head* I am back! BOOM, POW, BANG, WALLOP, YEAH! Not, as Maddy pointed out on chat tonight, that I went anywhere. Not really. I have however […]

Prose for Thought – Day 3

Not too great, accepted a fate, belly not good can’t eat food have a funny feeling rising to the ceiling raving in the kitchen this music has me itching massive adrenaline rush feel emotionally crushed, prickles on my neck scared, can sense panic drop to the floor, can’t take any more never had this before […]

Keep breathing

That’s the key. Just keep breathing. It’s the same – this writing thing and the whole depression thing.  I have to keep breathing. Get through the next day, get through the next hour, get through the next few hundred words. Day 11 of NaNoWriMo is my least favourite day.  It’s the day where I realise […]

What I’m writing – up and down

You may or may not be aware that I am currently having yet another (quite melodramatic) depressive episode. It’s been going on for a few weeks and I’ve had to succumb to being medicated, which is totally rubbish. However, one of the advantages of being far too scared to leave the house or speak to […]

The Prompt – Smoke

It’s not like there was no screaming warning, No wisp of smoke from the dreaded fire burning. ‘I’m ill.’ I say, although without conviction. Its unlikely you’d tell anything from my diction. ‘Ok,’ he says ‘It will be a huge shame To see you go off, so if can name Some things we can do […]

Prose for Thought – Sertraline

With these pills you will probably get: disorientation, much more sweat, Nausea, sickness, diarrhoea, But soon you’ll be filled with drugged-up cheer. You might well experience sexual dysfunction But you’re depressed so you’ll have no compunction, Fainting, lightheadedness, low sodium levels You’ll be ok, though, just a bit dishevelled Your muscles might contract without help […]